Crazy-ness

Clueing in on our life!
Life is a complicated wonderful thing. ......Bittersweet sums it up!
In the last week we moved 2 big truck loads from out apartment to the house on Houston ave. Still not 100% packed, and Andy's parents still have 80% to still pack at Houston to moved to Erie. Joy, the house is way crammed and totally not baby proof!
This morning the t.v. wasn't working and Mommy told Sophia we could go for a walk.  But DUH me! The stroller isn't here yet. What to do!???
Everything is packed!
Sophia loves all the commotion, and enjoys getting into everything.
Within 15 minutes this morning she was chewing on the end of scissors, dropped pliers on her foot, screamed bloody murder and kept trying to pull the plant and glass dishes off grandma and grandpa's coffee table!
I made myself at home and baby proofed the living room and Much as I could for the time being.
Walking through the house that is soon to be my little family of three's home, I can see Sophia growing up in it. It soothes my soul knowing Sophia wont be missing out on the things I call "a normal childhood".
Living on a street where she can ride her bike or evn her escalade Barbie car(which I will start saving for now).
She can even sit in the middle of the road and draw with sidewalk chalk and not worry about tons of traffic!...which I did growing up.
She can get dirty, and do things that cause tons of bruises on her legs. We have a yard big enough for "her" dream playhouse. (Which is really my dream)
A cute little swingset with a slide and sand box.
Oh yea, and WE CAN FINALLY GET A KITTY!!!! :-)
I love the sounds of it all!
And I'm pumped to buy a grill and cook out on it every Summer night! Hello corn on the cob the tastey way!! :-)
Most of all I look forward to the rainy days where I can sit out on the back pourch on a little wooden swing and listen to the wonderful rain drops.
Happy, happy JOY!
THIS IS LIFE! & I love it!!!
Yet another crazy event in my life is college. I applied at JCC last Tuesday and got the phone call the next day saying I was accepted. I went in ,took a placement test and scheduled my night classes. IM DOING IT!
I told my beautiful little girl I wanted what's best for her. I want her to have the things I couldn't have as a kid. I want to find a job good enough for her. And I want lots more kids.
Andy wont be able to work all by himself for ever! And I acknowledge how hard he works for us two girls. I want to help, and play my part!
I did some planning, and dreaming. I figured it out.
Every time I think of going to college the first thing that pops up in my mind is criminal justice.
So therefore that's what I am going for. I timed it just right so that I graduate when Sophia enters kindergarden. Which means I will have the time to get a full time or even part time job.
Amen to this future God is bringing my way!
I have never known what I wanted to do with my life until this little girl came along.
I love you buggie<3

Clearifying

First off, I would like to say I have been terribly grumpy latley.
don't want to be around many people. And life just seems to be going down hill all over again.
I'm trying super hard not to be frustrated by it. But how can you not when it just gets worse!?
I feel like every one looks at me with disappointment .....strangers, family and even some friends.

I want to make it clear.
I had a baby, I chose to take responsibility and be a mother. A GOOD MOTHER as a matter of fact.
I'm 21 not 12.
I've been graduated for 4 years,  I'm not still in high school.
and I also graduated from cosmetology, which I chose not to continue with outside of school. (Doesn't mean I'm a failure) I never went into cosmetology hoping to find a career from it, but eventually once participating in the class the thought of being a full time cosmetogist crossed my mind a couple times. But in the end its not for me!

No I didn't go to college before having a family, but that doesn't mean I'm not going to get anywhere in life or not be able to provide for my daughter and the many more children I wish to have in the future.
I enjoy being a stay at home Mommy. I think its best for my daughter until she is old enough to go to pre-k. As long as my family and I are doing financially fine, then I don't see a point. Yea some extra money would be nice. But sacraficing pedicures, highlights, I-pads and other new technology is part of being a Mommy. And I rather see my daughter grow... sue me!

Yes I'm on WIC.
Even before I was on Wic I never thought of it as a welfare program.
It's not.
Its actually a good program I think every pregnant mother should be on.
It gives you and your baby the nutrition you need everyday.
Its a smart program and I have learned how to eat appropriately with it.
It forces you to buy veggies, fruits, milk, and bread.
You can't just go buy anything with it.
Its not only for "low class" people.  my entire family was on Wic growing up. There's absolutely nothing wrong with that!
Wic also has a very good breastfeeding class. Birthing class. It has a program where you can meet with other mothers(married or not, teenagers or not) and talk about your pregnancies and ask questions. Its kind of like a support group. Your going through something new in your life. Whats better than knowing people who is going through a pregnancy at the same time you are!?
I wish I would have gone to a class IR 2 when I was pregnant!
Secoondly they are there for your baby and the babies health.

I'm sick of people staring at me when I'm at the mall, at wal-mart or even out to lunch.
I may look 15 but I'm NOT!
STOP JUDGING!
Surprise,Surprise!.. its not even the elderly who glare.
Its actually TODAYS society.

Times like this I wish I looked my age.... uhhhh!

Mothers day and a very special momment!

Today was mothers day.
My "second" mothers day.
Last year I celebrated mothers day by myself,finding out Sophia was growing inside of me... after 6 home pregnancy tests and I still didn't believe it.
This year I celebrated with my amazing Sophia my wonderful boyfriend, his normal parents and my not so normal, crazy family!

Sophia and mommy spent lots of cuddles and play time this morning. We got ready for church together,all morning Sophia had a huge grin on her face. Like she knew it was a special day for mommy!
In church she became the highlight of our pew by talking in the middle of the serman.
Any other time I would be embarressed and leave with her to get her to quiet down. But somehow leaving didn't cross my mind and Mommy was smiling from ear to ear( maybe that's why she kept doing it)
After church Andrew, Sophia and I went back to Andy's parents house and exchnaged gifts with the Mommys!
We met up with my crazy family and Dutch village in clymer for a buffet but of course when we got there my family was already in line and some even had their plates full of food. Doesn't feel very welcoming when they do this. Lets just say its going to be a while until I tend a family function again. HOW RUDE!

I did however try to make the best of the lunch. We then went shopping in the gift shop and I found camo furniture!!!!!!
Which someday I WILL own!

After coming home and relaxing, I must say it was an amazing day. I got to spend every second with the amazing person who made me a mommy.
She's made me who I am today.
I've grown up.
I've found God.
And I wouldn't have it any other way.

Thank you Andrew Todd and Sophia lyn for giving mommy the best mothers day ever! I love you both!

Now for the very special moment!!
Some exciting news is happening next Sunday my Sophia lyn will be dedicated to the lord.
Can I get an amen!

I'm so truly excited!
I've dreamed of this day since month 4 of my baby girl growing inside of my tummy.
I'm not a person to show any emotion around people. Ill hold it in as long as possible!!!
But this makes me jump for joy!
I may cry on Sunday. and guess what?
I don't even care!

I'm thinking about getting cute cross sugar cookies made that have a purple "S" on them for everyone who attends.
Please come watch as mommy and daddy dedicate Sophia lyn to Christ, Sunday may 20th 2012.

A start of a new "bad" habit?

Great news this week!
Sophia's no longer sick!
No more blow dryer her bum! Thanks to a generic wal-mart brand butt cream:-)  and of course a thanks to the good ol hair dryer!

Sophia took two big steps up this past week. She sleeps EVERY night in her crib! And she sleeps all night!... a total of 10 hours!  Huge change and this mama is in a much better, lively mood the past couple days. The house has never been so spotless with all my energy!
I put the extra energy to use by some good, fun, exercising and cleaning.

Also the second step Sophia had this week is talking.... oh my goodness she talks to everything and anything... a loud talk, not just cooing and smiles now... this is full out bursts, especially to Mickey mouse!

Last night we had an episode where it was daddy and Sophia time.
And well soph wasn't having it! I guess all she wanted was mommy! She just screamed bloody murder untilled mommy came to the rescue.
Worries me, we don't want to make that a habit!
She will not be that child!

Ice cream, pie, and blow drying butts!

Say what?

Yesterday Sophia attended her first auction.
An Amish auction as a matter of fact. She spent the whole day with mommy, cousin Stacey,  cousin Audi and second cousin Corbin who is just over a month old.
We got free burgers, hotdogs, home made pies, and icecream!
Audi and I Fed her icecream from a spoon.. soph loved it! She ate it like a champ! She knew what to do with the spoon and even tried to hold it herself.then mommy gave her pie filling! Black raspberry!!!
She liked that better than the icecream.
Later that night daddy gave her Pepsi! Which we got no expression from; so I have no idea how she feels about that.
I'm so proud of her using the big girl spoon, I might start some vegetables once she's 4 months.

Now onto the blow dryer and butts.
The last week Sophia has had a really bad butt rash. Its bleeding, looks shiny and feels like leather!
Its gotten so bad that as soon as she's laid down to get changed she's immediately shaking and screaming! Poor baby girls scared! She actually cries tears from this! It makes me so sad
:-(
So this is where the blow drying her butt comes into play.
Well Andy and I can't ever get her butt dry enough to spread the butt cream onto the rash....so we started to blow dryer her butt with a hair dryer.
Works like a charm!
She likes it and it gets the job done.
Butt cream goes on smoothly.
And her bums, lookin better!

Amen to hair dryers!

Growing to fast!

My little 7lb 13ounce baby is now 13.2 lbs!!! Not SOOO little anymore... but still little:)
Friday the 20th, Sophia laughed super Loud for the first time. She usually just coo's and giggles and talks to toys in her own baby language. But this time it was a full out laugh!... aunt tabby was there to witness it!
Last night Andrew and I spent about 3-4 hours at the hospital with her. She hadn't ate more than 6 ounces in the last 24 hours and was refusing any formula or pedialite. I got worried. There was a major lack of wet diapers the last 2 days but she thankfully stayed hydrated! Amen.
I have never been to WCA myself. And would rather go anywhere but WCA, but the doctor at the 5 star urgent care center informed me soph would just be getting blood work done, there's nothing to worry about.so I gave in and went.
We left with a tired baby, nothing but a bronchitis sheet for me to read.. but she had x-rays done that confirmed she didn't even have bronchitis...? And not one nurse doctor or person even looked into her not eating habit! ....... !!! AND to remind you,  the reason why we were sent there by the doctor from urgent care was because they don't do blood work there and sent us to the ER for it! Which we ended up leaving with out anyone doing blood work or even talking to us about blood work... I take it, the 8 different nurses that didn't even know what was Going on around them forgot the reason we were there..? Maybe they were to caught up with their homework they ALL had to do, since I didn't met a single one out of school yet!
I was so annoyed! Can't wait for that hospital bill in he mail!.... USELESS!
....I've made up my mind, I'm getting a pediatrician!

Can we think convenience here...?

So every mother or father comes across the momment when restaurants, stores, hospitals, or schools don't have changing tables....

What are you suppose to do!!!!!????
How would you like to sit it your over full diaper people!!!!!!!

Sunday Andy and I are shopping for a new pair of sneakers for him at Olympia Sports.. Sophia went # 2 so bad I'm pretty sure the employees could smell her.so we had to explain to them we would have to leave since they don't have a bathroom.. mind you, andy has like 5 different pairs of shoes out waiting to try on. He asks the lady not to put them away , we'll be right back.
Well I thought going to a different store would be a good idea, but TJmax failed me.. so then Tim Horton's....but no changig table!! oh how convenient!!
so good ol kfc/taco bell to the rescue!
3rd times a charm eh?

I believe EVERY PUBLIC BUILDING needs a changing table in the bathroom!  It should be law!!

Another thing I've noticed is the dang car seat...some fit in shopping carts, others don't. at one reasturant it fits on the booster seats,  other reasturants it doesn't!
And when your 5 foot even like me!!! You can't see over your baby or the car seat when its in the shopping cart! I have almost ran over soooo many people at Wegmans I get dirty looks. And just the other day I was walking down the isle and boom!! Knocked  down two displays full of wind chimes!!!.... the loudest item in the store!
That time I got laughed at, no dirty looks.. it was quite funny though.

Can't they make car seats safe and CONVENIENT!!??

AND last but not least, it would be SO much easier if this world made ALL car seats with a universal base. Every base should be the same!!... but nooooo, that's how they make money.

If only everyone had "convienence" on their mind...

( I do have to give Wegmans two thumbs up for being the most convenient store I've found so far.. supplying mothers and elderly with wipes and diapers next to the baby changing station...and for FREE.) Lets just hope people don't take advantage of the stores thoughfullness and ruin it for the ones who really appreciate it.

Yay for free diapers! And lets think convenience everyone!!! :-)