Does that make sense?
Anyways, I think this is the same with " Once a sinner, always a sinner".
Everyone's a sinner, weather you mean to be or not. And no sin is greater than another.
Lying is the same sin as having sex before marriage or doing drugs. Get the point?
I understand my sin,
But I do think about how God wanted me to wait till marriage, he doesn't want me living in sin EVERYDAY with Andy.
And that's what I would like to clarify. We have a family. Out of sin. But we ARE trying to fix that!
That's why we are getting married. We go to church every Sunday, to a church I actually ENJOY! With people I am close to!
God doesn't only come into conversation on Sundays in our home. We are RAISING our daughter with the Lord. Like we promised on April 20th of 2012 to the church as we dedicated Sophia!
Us, sinners.....dedicated Sophia at a church.
Us, sinners want to get married at OUR church. I can already tell you, there are a lot of people at church who don't approve of me...why? Cause they know my sin! It's pretty obvious. And for that.....they don't approve of what Andy is doing....(fathering Sophia, being my fiance).
Those Debbie Downers, who use my sin against me....your sinners too.... but I don't use that against you! Just because I don't know your sin, because you don't make it obvious, like mine is.....Its still no lower than mine. God clarifies in the bible many, many times, that no sin is greater FOR A REASON!
So since I sinned, I need to be legally married at a court house of some sort before I can have a wedding ceremony at the place I worship every Sunday, The place I was good enough to dedicate my daughter at. The place I'm good enough to use my free time and participate at Vacation Bible School, The Dust of the Rabbi and be on Nursery Duty. My sin isn't used against me when it comes to those things......But when it comes to marriage.?
Do people think I like to live in sin everyday? That I don't want to fix it?
I do want to fix it!..or else I wouldn't be getting married, I wouldn't be waiting to have sex till I'm married! I want another child SO bad. But I know the right thing to do is WAIT TILL MARRIAGE!...and that's exactly what I'm doing!. If doing it the right way wasn't really what I wanted to do, I'd be pregnant again already!..sorry, but not sorry for telling the truth.
I Understand how people can be against my sin, at the same time I don't blame them. But my sin isn't who I AM!
But why its being held against me...I can't fathom.
What happened with forgiveness?
Even thought there are Debbie Downers, at the same time, there are tons of people who don't judge me or Andy. They don't ask questions. They accept me and notice that we are TRYING to do the right thing. And its because of those people, and friends, why I go to church.
Those other people I Thank You for that! And I am Thankful for their friendship, and welcoming arms that some people don't exactly have, just because of my past.
My questions is.......Since everyone is a sinner from DAY ONE, does everyone have to get married in the court house before they have a ceremony at a church? Or is it for a certain sin? (such as mine)
And if so, when did sin's start being classified?????
And will my sin always be used against me?
I know it's not my place to answer any of these questions I have, and I'm sure I'm not the first one to ask these.... Only God has the answers I suppose<3
