As you may already know, Sophia’s biological father is not in her life. From about 4 months pregnant and on…I had the hardest time accepting it. I found myself trying for him. No matter what or who spoke to me about it, anyone else’s opinion on letting him put forth some effort just did NOT register in my head. All the mistakes he repeatedly made, just didn’t matter to me. I felt like no matter what drugs he did or how much he physically or emotionally was hurting me,I still felt like Soph needed her daddy. I have a really big opinion on fathers, Mine wasn’t the worst.….But I grew up with drugs and alcohol ruining my relationship with my father, which also has led to ruin all male relationships in my life. I didn’t want my daughter ever feeling the same way about her daddy…. The biggest memory that I look back on and hurts the most was knowing and remembering at one point in life I was “daddy’s little girl”…. But Now I’m not. I wonder, if I wasn’t so close to my father when I was little……Then I wouldn’t be so angry towards him. But thanks to my STRONG opinion on drugs and alcohol, my relationship with my dad is VERY distant and alcohol remains to be more important at the wrong times for him. If I didn’t have younger sisters, I would not be able to see in his eyes that us kids are technically more important then alcohol. A child should not grow up questioning why an addiction always comes first. Sophia’s father will not come and go out of her life as he pleases As much as it hurts me to be ok with Sophia not growing up with her real daddy, I have to thank God…For answering a prayer of mine, ever since I could remember my biggest opinion was “ I would NEVER allow my child growing up around any kind of addiction” and as much as I think every girl needs her daddy, I think THIS is what’s best for Sophia.
Today I find myself wondering how Sophia will react to knowing her biological dads not here....Will there be some anger towards Me or him?
Today I find myself wondering how Sophia will react to knowing her biological dads not here....Will there be some anger towards Me or him?
I don’t want her to hate him, or even think he’s a bad person…or that he didn’t love her. She WILL know who he is, I will answer all her questions she has about him. But I am happy to say Sophia is blessed with an amazing step-dad, who loves her as much as he loves me. He doesn't use or abuse! & He has stepped up and taken on another mans (boy) responsibility. I Hope Soph doesn’t dwell about her real dad. And I pray she realizes who truly loves her. I just wanted what is best for my daughter, and I am SO happy that she doesn’t have to grow up without a daddy. I am BEYOND grateful that she has a step dad, who will be more then a father to Sophia and who already loves her as his own, and that’s all that counts<3 He also has showed me how Sophia doesn’t need to be around drugs just to be loved or to have her daddy.My daughter will NEVER question why an addiction appears to be more important and she will never have hatred towards a substance. That’s NOT what is best for my daughter, ... and I’m just glad I realized this before the addiction/abuse affected her in any way. I am relieved that Sophia doesnt have to grow up questioning why shes not daddys little girl anymore.
