Clearifying

First off, I would like to say I have been terribly grumpy latley.
don't want to be around many people. And life just seems to be going down hill all over again.
I'm trying super hard not to be frustrated by it. But how can you not when it just gets worse!?
I feel like every one looks at me with disappointment .....strangers, family and even some friends.

I want to make it clear.
I had a baby, I chose to take responsibility and be a mother. A GOOD MOTHER as a matter of fact.
I'm 21 not 12.
I've been graduated for 4 years,  I'm not still in high school.
and I also graduated from cosmetology, which I chose not to continue with outside of school. (Doesn't mean I'm a failure) I never went into cosmetology hoping to find a career from it, but eventually once participating in the class the thought of being a full time cosmetogist crossed my mind a couple times. But in the end its not for me!

No I didn't go to college before having a family, but that doesn't mean I'm not going to get anywhere in life or not be able to provide for my daughter and the many more children I wish to have in the future.
I enjoy being a stay at home Mommy. I think its best for my daughter until she is old enough to go to pre-k. As long as my family and I are doing financially fine, then I don't see a point. Yea some extra money would be nice. But sacraficing pedicures, highlights, I-pads and other new technology is part of being a Mommy. And I rather see my daughter grow... sue me!

Yes I'm on WIC.
Even before I was on Wic I never thought of it as a welfare program.
It's not.
Its actually a good program I think every pregnant mother should be on.
It gives you and your baby the nutrition you need everyday.
Its a smart program and I have learned how to eat appropriately with it.
It forces you to buy veggies, fruits, milk, and bread.
You can't just go buy anything with it.
Its not only for "low class" people.  my entire family was on Wic growing up. There's absolutely nothing wrong with that!
Wic also has a very good breastfeeding class. Birthing class. It has a program where you can meet with other mothers(married or not, teenagers or not) and talk about your pregnancies and ask questions. Its kind of like a support group. Your going through something new in your life. Whats better than knowing people who is going through a pregnancy at the same time you are!?
I wish I would have gone to a class IR 2 when I was pregnant!
Secoondly they are there for your baby and the babies health.

I'm sick of people staring at me when I'm at the mall, at wal-mart or even out to lunch.
I may look 15 but I'm NOT!
STOP JUDGING!
Surprise,Surprise!.. its not even the elderly who glare.
Its actually TODAYS society.

Times like this I wish I looked my age.... uhhhh!

Mothers day and a very special momment!

Today was mothers day.
My "second" mothers day.
Last year I celebrated mothers day by myself,finding out Sophia was growing inside of me... after 6 home pregnancy tests and I still didn't believe it.
This year I celebrated with my amazing Sophia my wonderful boyfriend, his normal parents and my not so normal, crazy family!

Sophia and mommy spent lots of cuddles and play time this morning. We got ready for church together,all morning Sophia had a huge grin on her face. Like she knew it was a special day for mommy!
In church she became the highlight of our pew by talking in the middle of the serman.
Any other time I would be embarressed and leave with her to get her to quiet down. But somehow leaving didn't cross my mind and Mommy was smiling from ear to ear( maybe that's why she kept doing it)
After church Andrew, Sophia and I went back to Andy's parents house and exchnaged gifts with the Mommys!
We met up with my crazy family and Dutch village in clymer for a buffet but of course when we got there my family was already in line and some even had their plates full of food. Doesn't feel very welcoming when they do this. Lets just say its going to be a while until I tend a family function again. HOW RUDE!

I did however try to make the best of the lunch. We then went shopping in the gift shop and I found camo furniture!!!!!!
Which someday I WILL own!

After coming home and relaxing, I must say it was an amazing day. I got to spend every second with the amazing person who made me a mommy.
She's made me who I am today.
I've grown up.
I've found God.
And I wouldn't have it any other way.

Thank you Andrew Todd and Sophia lyn for giving mommy the best mothers day ever! I love you both!

Now for the very special moment!!
Some exciting news is happening next Sunday my Sophia lyn will be dedicated to the lord.
Can I get an amen!

I'm so truly excited!
I've dreamed of this day since month 4 of my baby girl growing inside of my tummy.
I'm not a person to show any emotion around people. Ill hold it in as long as possible!!!
But this makes me jump for joy!
I may cry on Sunday. and guess what?
I don't even care!

I'm thinking about getting cute cross sugar cookies made that have a purple "S" on them for everyone who attends.
Please come watch as mommy and daddy dedicate Sophia lyn to Christ, Sunday may 20th 2012.

A start of a new "bad" habit?

Great news this week!
Sophia's no longer sick!
No more blow dryer her bum! Thanks to a generic wal-mart brand butt cream:-)  and of course a thanks to the good ol hair dryer!

Sophia took two big steps up this past week. She sleeps EVERY night in her crib! And she sleeps all night!... a total of 10 hours!  Huge change and this mama is in a much better, lively mood the past couple days. The house has never been so spotless with all my energy!
I put the extra energy to use by some good, fun, exercising and cleaning.

Also the second step Sophia had this week is talking.... oh my goodness she talks to everything and anything... a loud talk, not just cooing and smiles now... this is full out bursts, especially to Mickey mouse!

Last night we had an episode where it was daddy and Sophia time.
And well soph wasn't having it! I guess all she wanted was mommy! She just screamed bloody murder untilled mommy came to the rescue.
Worries me, we don't want to make that a habit!
She will not be that child!

Ice cream, pie, and blow drying butts!

Say what?

Yesterday Sophia attended her first auction.
An Amish auction as a matter of fact. She spent the whole day with mommy, cousin Stacey,  cousin Audi and second cousin Corbin who is just over a month old.
We got free burgers, hotdogs, home made pies, and icecream!
Audi and I Fed her icecream from a spoon.. soph loved it! She ate it like a champ! She knew what to do with the spoon and even tried to hold it herself.then mommy gave her pie filling! Black raspberry!!!
She liked that better than the icecream.
Later that night daddy gave her Pepsi! Which we got no expression from; so I have no idea how she feels about that.
I'm so proud of her using the big girl spoon, I might start some vegetables once she's 4 months.

Now onto the blow dryer and butts.
The last week Sophia has had a really bad butt rash. Its bleeding, looks shiny and feels like leather!
Its gotten so bad that as soon as she's laid down to get changed she's immediately shaking and screaming! Poor baby girls scared! She actually cries tears from this! It makes me so sad
:-(
So this is where the blow drying her butt comes into play.
Well Andy and I can't ever get her butt dry enough to spread the butt cream onto the rash....so we started to blow dryer her butt with a hair dryer.
Works like a charm!
She likes it and it gets the job done.
Butt cream goes on smoothly.
And her bums, lookin better!

Amen to hair dryers!